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[03 Feb 2005|10:50am] |
So this is wear i close the door and turn the lights out
I'll keep myself busy with what you write....
I told you why i called her pretty..uselles words to start something to kill this feeling but my explenation never works for you so next time when you shoot that bullet i'll give you silence. You know how much you mean to me you know that i can't even find any other girl with true beauty but I wasn't enough i was neverm enough for you, one year and two months and all of those days i told you "i love you dear how can youi be so beatiful?" I don't understand i was on the phone with you while you made your entery on your damn site and it seemed like it was ok but not it wasnt...was it...to find something to hurt me again...you wanna be alone go ahead then dont call me...i dont know what your trying to do...are you trying to show him that theres nothing going on? do you wanna keep him close by writing something eles
YOU WANT TO HEAR HAPPY WORDS
i fucking love you
and you will always will my princess
</3
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[31 Jan 2005|06:23pm] |
I'm sorry i did it
I thought about you and everything went to hell
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you'd say "we're only friends." yeah, real good friends, I bet. I bet."
all i got in my head are your lies
im sorry
i dont think i wanna hear it anymore
its driving me crazy
im closing the connection....goodbye
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[31 Jan 2005|02:32am] |
i cant lie to myself....
i still love you
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[29 Jan 2005|03:18pm] |
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i was right u r full of shit!
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[29 Jan 2005|02:30am] |
sometimes i just dont want to
dont want to..
i just dont..
should i..?
no..
yes..?
goodbye
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[28 Jan 2005|12:57am] |
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[31 Dec 2004|03:46pm] |
i was such a fool to fall in love with you
lets face it we were not meant to be
and when i walk away
you do exaclty what you good at </3
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[02 Dec 2004|08:24pm] |
im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im soim sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorryrry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sim sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorryorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry imim sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry sorry im sorry im sorrim sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorryy im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry im sorry....
ill leave u alone till ur okay....just dont make the last year mean nothing
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| "c'est la vie"- I can't accept |
[04 Oct 2004|07:10pm] |
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HERE GOES SATURDAY
I had class in the morning and after that i went to the gym and after that i went to adams where he gave me coffee and a bagel for 0.87$ yep yep lol then we went to his house because he needed to chenge to go to dockstreet. So i was suppost to see Carianne my dear love but she had a class in the city so we desided that we will meat each other at dock street. Steve and Yuriy came and picked me and Adam at his house. Carianne had a few problems gettting to dock street because her brother was been a dick and on top of that she was sick so i felt bad but there was nothing that i could do until the mean time. Got to dock street so some people that i havent seen for along time. Carianne came about half an hour later she was all sick and i felt bad because there was nothing i could do i wish i could srink and become the medicine for all the problems...that would be nice. Carianne got a sad and stuff because she thinks she ruined what was alive inside of me...babe you didnt ruine anything..whatever happened..happened...it just made us stronger more then ever so please dont worry about it anymore you my sorce of light the beat of my heart the blood in my vains the smile on my face...your everything that i ever asked for..dont ever forget that...just remember we danced under the moon while the ocean played our fav song. Anyways about COCK STREET it was good show TWR,SMS, and QNC played. All did a good job. There was a fight while QNC played but im not gonna get into it and this girl came yelling at me because i bumbed into her in the mosh pit...in the fucking moshpit what the fuck was she accepting?! did she want people to like was her hair and do her nails while she was in there dumb fat bitch...if u dont want to get touched in a mosh pit or even fall or anything like that people dont go to any show make life easier for us so we dont have to pitty you! Anyways the next day My dearly love came over and it was just me and her like last year when she sneaked into my house after school and we talked and cudled and i gave her one of the one year anniversary gifst =) she loved and im glad she did it because i was scared that she wouldnt. Then we went to the mall where she bought me the new StarWars game for PS2 isnt the she best?!?!?!?! i bet our gf didnt buy the game =) hehe I LOVE HER SO MUCH <33333
its good be in love...its good have you by my side...its amzing to know that im going to wake up next to you one day...
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I HOPE YOU'LL HAVE A BETTER LOVER TOMORROW...
</3
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[14 Aug 2004|06:49pm] |
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God time seems to be moving so fucking slowly i cant take this im most likely less then a day away from carianne but i wont get to see her until monday that is if she is allowed to hangout or if she wants to see me...but this is total pain! i havent talked to her for 3 days! i cant do this someone stich some wings on my back so i could fly to her or do some kind of trick that it will bring us closer at least by phone everytime the phone rings i cross my fingers and i hope its her! im staring at the clock but its just not helping! this is hell i have alot to tell her i have alot to see i miss her smile her blue eyes i miss how her hair gets cought in mine i miss her profume smell when i kissed her soft skin i miss the cute gigle i miss her voice and how she made me feel whole i miss her i fucking miss her god damn it! time move faster will yah?!! i miss her kisses before i go to bed!!
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[14 Aug 2004|01:07pm] |
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CARIANNES COUNTDOWN:
1 MORE DAY
my hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me <3
she is almost here ALMOST I CANT WAIT WOOOOOHHH!!!!
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[13 Aug 2004|03:22pm] |
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CARIANNES COUNTDOWN:
2 MORE DAYS
i'm counting the days and we are getting closer...
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[12 Aug 2004|02:30pm] |
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CARIANNES COUNTDOWN:
3 MORE DAYS
i'm recalling the memories while your gone to keep my breathing on scheduale...
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[11 Aug 2004|02:08pm] |
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CARIANNES COUNTDOWN:
4 MORE DAYS
i just needed to know that i've been missed...and i know i have
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[10 Aug 2004|02:25pm] |
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SHE GAVE ME A CALL TODAY<3
CARIANNES COUNTDOWN:
5 MORE DAYS
i can't wait until she gets back!
(my computer is broken thats why i havents updates,im using my cousins right now)
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| This Photograph Is Proof (I Know You Know) |
[04 Jul 2004|08:42pm] |
Well, i'll wait till you listen
I wont say a word
to follow your instincts
just never worked for me
your silent but strong, (yeah, I'm playing that card)
and your noticing nothing again
Now I'm lying on the table
with everything you said
keeping mind the way that it felt
when the most I could do was to just blame myself
(yeah, I'm playing that card)
when the most I could do was to just blame myself
and I know you know, everything
I know you didnt mean it
I know you didnt mean it
I know you know, everything (drop everything)
I know you didn't mean it (start it all over)
I know you didn't mean it (remember more then youd like to forget)
So, we're talking forever
and you almost feel better
but, betters no excuse for tonight
you see, it's never been enough
to just leave or give up
but, its never good enough to feel right
Now I'm lying on the table
with everything you said
it will all catch up eventually
well, it caught up and honestly
the weight of my decisions
were impossible to hold
but they were never yours
they were never yours
Well I, know you know, everything
I know you didnt mean it
I know you didnt mean it
I know you know, everything (drop everything)
I know you didn't mean it (start it all over)
I know you didn't meant it (remember more then youd like to forget)
Drop everything, start it all over
remember more then youd like to forget
Would you like to forget
would you like to forget
drop everything, start it all over
well, drop everything start it all over (would you like to forget)
drop everything start it all over
start it all...
Well I, know you know, everything
I know you didnt mean it
I know you didnt mean it
I know you know, everything (drop everything)
I know you didnt mean it (start it all over)
I know you didnt meant it (remember more then youd like to forget)
I know you know
I know you know...you know, you know, you know...
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| you play the mistaken |
[02 Jul 2004|03:16pm] |
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Stolen ART Crime (3:15:05 PM): im gonna be wearing a shirt with ur pic or on it and and its gonna say "ROSS ROCKS"
ReelBigRiot22 (3:15:25 PM): no way haha
ReelBigRiot22 (3:15:34 PM): i'll cry
Stolen ART Crime (3:15:47 PM): fine!
Stolen ART Crime (3:15:58 PM): i was just trying to help!
ReelBigRiot22 (3:16:00 PM): happy tears
Stolen ART Crime (3:16:12 PM): lol okay in that case
ReelBigRiot22 (3:16:16 PM): haha
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Were should i begin...im not quite sure, my mind is numb right now but for everyone that’s reading this please do not stop i have something to say a story you could say. A story but im not sure if i have an ending...no I’m not sure but i do not want to have an ending but please i need my audience because i have something to say and yes might be insane. This story has a Juliet and like all Juliet’s have their own Romeo. Juliet is a beautiful blond girl that was very sad before one day she met this guy...this guy had something for Juliet…that thing was his heart…his guy was Romeo. She accepted it and Juliet gave her own to Romeo. Eight months passed by and something tragic happened to Juliet...somebody in her life passed away and during the past few days when every time she came home from the wake and other stuff she has been acting different very different toward Romeo which left Romeo in tears everything and everything it got worse but Romeo hopped that it was the tragedy in her and hopped that all this was not the taste of the end...he prayed to god that he doesn’t believe in to make her come back to him and change everything. But if this was the end Romeo lost it all, he lost hope to live to breathe...but Romeo didn’t want Suicide he didn’t want to make Juliet guilty every time she woke up he didn’t want to blame because he loved her and he wanted its for to be happy so Romeo thought to run away because he wont be able to watch Juliet start a new life without him...
Please don’t leave me... </3
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